Just one of those days.....

It's been a while since I felt, down. I know, i'm only human. These past few days I have felt a range of emotions. It's been a while since I actually cried because I was feeling down for myself.

A good friend of mine reminded me that one of my weaknesses is showing weakness.
I know, I guess I do have a problem with that. It's not that I try to deflect it. I guess I feel like I am in a position where I do not want to show the weakness so I can be strong for others. A leader must be strong, and set an example. Be there for his/her team. Take care of the team. That's who I am. I really don't care about my feelings, I care more about the people around me. One of the strengths that God has given me or maybe something where I feel maybe an obligation. Or something God wants me to do for Him. I just do it. For the love of others, for the love of His people.


Sometimes I may come off as self righteous, and I have no intentions of that at all. I'm far from perfect. In all honestly, I feel insignificant. I have so many imperfections. I do not like to sound arrogant, nor do I like to boast. I am better than NOONE. Compare me to dirt, please.


It does take a toll on me because I am not perfect. Trying to uphold His image is HARD WORK. To represent Christ, is hard. I enjoy it, and I love it, but I do struggle with it. I just want to please God. Crazy Love.



In all honestly, I am feeling like blah.